Well, I kinda fucked up today.
As a Producer/Production Manager I should've been able to come up with a suitable replacement, but I couldn't.
We'll be shooting tomorrow, but damn. Gotta do better next time.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Saturday, February 07, 2009
The Day I Had Cancer
I rolled out of bed this morning and squared up to go to the doctor.
I was running late, and not really sure where I was going. 2501 N. Orange Ave. Dr. Ali Gaham.
I plugged the address into my iPhone and I was off, on my way. I rolled up to the Florida Hospital and immediately started kicking myself for not recognizing the address. I parked in the garage on King and walked into the lobby of the Hospital. The receptionist directed me upstairs and down a long winding hall. The hall was kinda confusing and made me glad I don’t suffer from dementia. The floor was littered with used wash cloths...I didn’t look too closely.
I filled out all the proper paperwork and was in the patient room in no time. The nurse (Nurse Nosey) went into detail about a lot of things in my life that I didn’t expect. Contraceptives, sexual partners, preferences...it was rapid fire questioning. Whoa.
Dr. Ali came in. I checked out and he said that he wanted to run some follow up blood tests.
I got my blood drawn (four vials) and was woozy as I left the hospital; I even forgot to have my parking validated.
It was all good, but by the time I got home I needed to eat food.
I made some food but before I could eat, I got a call from Dr. Gasham.
“Everything looks good. You aren’t showing any inclination toward Diabetes. Your Thyroids are fine, but you need to come back in so that we can talk about your LPDs. They’re a bit higher than I’d like.”
“Alright, I’ll schedule an appointment.”
“See you soon.”
I sat down to eat and got curious. What are LPDs. I wonder if there’s something I can do be prepared for a change.
I wikipeida-ed LPDs, and what I found was scary.
I tried to remain calm. WTF?
I called back and set up my appointment for the following Monday. As soon as possible.
I waited around for two hours, and then I couldn’t take it any more. I called Dr. Gasham back.
“I need to know, what’s up with these LPDs? Are they seriou-”
“LPDs? What are those?”
“I thought you said my LPDs were high?”
“LDL. Your LDL is higher than I would like. What are LPDs?”
I explained, and he joked with me about it. Phew...thank God.
So, long story short, my last year of working has done a lot for me, but it hasn’t done everything it needs to, and I might need to go on medication. There was talk that I might not be able to fix it on my own, a possible deficiency on my body’s part. Oh, well. At least I don’t have cancer.
I was running late, and not really sure where I was going. 2501 N. Orange Ave. Dr. Ali Gaham.
I plugged the address into my iPhone and I was off, on my way. I rolled up to the Florida Hospital and immediately started kicking myself for not recognizing the address. I parked in the garage on King and walked into the lobby of the Hospital. The receptionist directed me upstairs and down a long winding hall. The hall was kinda confusing and made me glad I don’t suffer from dementia. The floor was littered with used wash cloths...I didn’t look too closely.
I filled out all the proper paperwork and was in the patient room in no time. The nurse (Nurse Nosey) went into detail about a lot of things in my life that I didn’t expect. Contraceptives, sexual partners, preferences...it was rapid fire questioning. Whoa.
Dr. Ali came in. I checked out and he said that he wanted to run some follow up blood tests.
I got my blood drawn (four vials) and was woozy as I left the hospital; I even forgot to have my parking validated.
It was all good, but by the time I got home I needed to eat food.
I made some food but before I could eat, I got a call from Dr. Gasham.
“Everything looks good. You aren’t showing any inclination toward Diabetes. Your Thyroids are fine, but you need to come back in so that we can talk about your LPDs. They’re a bit higher than I’d like.”
“Alright, I’ll schedule an appointment.”
“See you soon.”
I sat down to eat and got curious. What are LPDs. I wonder if there’s something I can do be prepared for a change.
I wikipeida-ed LPDs, and what I found was scary.
Lymphoproliferative disorders (LPDs) refer to several conditions in which lymphocytes are produced in excessive quantities. They typically occur in patients who have compromised immune systems. They are sometimes equated with "immunoproliferative disorders", but technically Lymphoproliferative disorders are a subset of immunoproliferative disorders, along with hypergammaglobulinemia and paraproteinemias.
I tried to remain calm. WTF?
I called back and set up my appointment for the following Monday. As soon as possible.
I waited around for two hours, and then I couldn’t take it any more. I called Dr. Gasham back.
“I need to know, what’s up with these LPDs? Are they seriou-”
“LPDs? What are those?”
“I thought you said my LPDs were high?”
“LDL. Your LDL is higher than I would like. What are LPDs?”
I explained, and he joked with me about it. Phew...thank God.
So, long story short, my last year of working has done a lot for me, but it hasn’t done everything it needs to, and I might need to go on medication. There was talk that I might not be able to fix it on my own, a possible deficiency on my body’s part. Oh, well. At least I don’t have cancer.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
68 Days...
Man,
We've wrapped on our 35mm and that means that things at Full Sail are winding down. Just over two months from now I need to be doing something that forwards my career, but what?
I think about everything I've built here. The friends, the network, the life - and I wonder what will happen to all that. Will I be able to do it again? Will I be sucessful? Will I be able to stay in contact with all my friends again? Does any of that matter? Just because I want things to stay the same, doesn't mean that they will.
I set my jaw, look to the future and hope that I can be content; happy, even.
I've come to be content and at times downright happy with the last 18 months. I've forged some friendships that will be difficult to leave, and hopefully some that will continue to florish.
Hope, I guess that's all that I can do. Hope and work.
We'll see what happens from that point on.
We've wrapped on our 35mm and that means that things at Full Sail are winding down. Just over two months from now I need to be doing something that forwards my career, but what?
I think about everything I've built here. The friends, the network, the life - and I wonder what will happen to all that. Will I be able to do it again? Will I be sucessful? Will I be able to stay in contact with all my friends again? Does any of that matter? Just because I want things to stay the same, doesn't mean that they will.
I set my jaw, look to the future and hope that I can be content; happy, even.
I've come to be content and at times downright happy with the last 18 months. I've forged some friendships that will be difficult to leave, and hopefully some that will continue to florish.
Hope, I guess that's all that I can do. Hope and work.
We'll see what happens from that point on.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Because I need a moment
Step 1: Put your music player on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly (No lyric hunting! That is cheating!)
1. Well, this hurts me more than I can stand to say
2. You know I try to get close to you
3. I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
4. I'm holding on your rope
5. Stress can breed a psychopath
6. You've got your ball, you've got your chain
7. Meet me where the city turns to trees and nothing comes for free
8. Hello World
9. I had a dream we went away, left this city for a day
10. Safety pins hold up the things
11. You're sorry now
12. I'm sinking yet I'll stride
13. I'm gonna take you down to the market, lover
14. I've been cheated by you since I don't know when
15. It's been a while since the two of us talked
16. I fly like paper, get high like planes
17. If I had no more time
18. It may not feel too classy
19. Finally I figured out
20. There's something I need to show you
21. I'm not one for love songs
22. Every night devise
23. Standing on a building
24. The wilted flowers that I gave
25. Motorcycle's in the parking lot
26. Maybe if my heart stops beating
27. Jessie says she's been here for a thousand days
28. Do you know where your heart is?
29. Any dolt with half a brain
30. I'm a suspect, I'm a traitor
31. They're turning away from me
32. This place is a prison
33. You promised me starry night skies
34. If it takes away the pain it's all right
35. You were the sweetest thing that I ever knew
36. I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
37. I can't beleive the news today
38. Sittin' here eatin' my heart out waitin'
39. Wishes bounce me weightless
40. You took my hand, you showed me how
41. They told him don't you ever come around here
42. Last night I fell in love without you.
43. Let me apologize to begin with
44. So in the meantime
45. If the fish swam out of the ocean
46. Old John from his deathbed cried
47. Early in the mornin'
48. I'm coming out of my cage
49. Bones are broken and the will is sunk
50. Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly (No lyric hunting! That is cheating!)
1. Well, this hurts me more than I can stand to say
2. You know I try to get close to you
3. I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
4. I'm holding on your rope
5. Stress can breed a psychopath
7. Meet me where the city turns to trees and nothing comes for free
8. Hello World
9. I had a dream we went away, left this city for a day
10. Safety pins hold up the things
11. You're sorry now
12. I'm sinking yet I'll stride
13. I'm gonna take you down to the market, lover
14. I've been cheated by you since I don't know when
15. It's been a while since the two of us talked
16. I fly like paper, get high like planes
17. If I had no more time
19. Finally I figured out
20. There's something I need to show you
21. I'm not one for love songs
22. Every night devise
23. Standing on a building
24. The wilted flowers that I gave
25. Motorcycle's in the parking lot
26. Maybe if my heart stops beating
27. Jessie says she's been here for a thousand days
28. Do you know where your heart is?
30. I'm a suspect, I'm a traitor
31. They're turning away from me
32. This place is a prison
33. You promised me starry night skies
34. If it takes away the pain it's all right
35. You were the sweetest thing that I ever knew
36. I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
37. I can't beleive the news today
38. Sittin' here eatin' my heart out waitin'
39. Wishes bounce me weightless
40. You took my hand, you showed me how
41. They told him don't you ever come around here
42. Last night I fell in love without you.
43. Let me apologize to begin with
44. So in the meantime
45. If the fish swam out of the ocean
49. Bones are broken and the will is sunk
50. Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Resolutions - 09
Here’s the deal. I don’t care who you are, what you do, or what you expect from me, but this year is going to be mine.
2008 was great, but 2009 will be epic.
Here’s a brief re-cap of 2008:
1. I entered Sophomore, Junior, and Senior year.
2. I started learning how to take care of myself physically, and it’s paid off.
3. I worked on over 17 separate productions (music videos, independent productions, class projects, etc.)
4. I’ve managed to develop my social skills to an area that I didn’t really consider an option previously (at least for work).
5. I assessed my priorities and have been able to realize that I don’t need to have a set path.
6. In the last year of school, I was late to class once.
7. I started to develop contacts, local and national, within the Television/Film Industry
8. I learned to let go a bit more...
9. I kept in contact with those who mean something to me, although sometimes difficult.
10. I solidified some new friendships that I hope will continue to develop.
11. I worked my ass off; see numbers 1 thru 10.
P.S. - 12. I contacted a talent agency directly; attempting to garner talent for a low budget-independent short.
As I look to the future, I see lots of things that are beginning to develop.
I’m about to start my career.
I have no five year plan, except to succeed.
I’m going to be roughing it for a bit, and enjoying every miserable minute.
I finally feel the ability to deny access to myself from people who constantly pain me.
I am going to live life like it’s going out of fuckin’ style!
These are just a few of the affirmations/resolutions I’ve made to myself this year. There are a few others, but they’re personal, so if you’re nosey enough to ask, I might tell you.
Fuck it.
Fight on.
2008 was great, but 2009 will be epic.
Here’s a brief re-cap of 2008:
1. I entered Sophomore, Junior, and Senior year.
2. I started learning how to take care of myself physically, and it’s paid off.
3. I worked on over 17 separate productions (music videos, independent productions, class projects, etc.)
4. I’ve managed to develop my social skills to an area that I didn’t really consider an option previously (at least for work).
5. I assessed my priorities and have been able to realize that I don’t need to have a set path.
6. In the last year of school, I was late to class once.
7. I started to develop contacts, local and national, within the Television/Film Industry
8. I learned to let go a bit more...
9. I kept in contact with those who mean something to me, although sometimes difficult.
10. I solidified some new friendships that I hope will continue to develop.
11. I worked my ass off; see numbers 1 thru 10.
P.S. - 12. I contacted a talent agency directly; attempting to garner talent for a low budget-independent short.
As I look to the future, I see lots of things that are beginning to develop.
I’m about to start my career.
I have no five year plan, except to succeed.
I’m going to be roughing it for a bit, and enjoying every miserable minute.
I finally feel the ability to deny access to myself from people who constantly pain me.
I am going to live life like it’s going out of fuckin’ style!
These are just a few of the affirmations/resolutions I’ve made to myself this year. There are a few others, but they’re personal, so if you’re nosey enough to ask, I might tell you.
Fuck it.
Fight on.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Monday, September 08, 2008
Moving too fast...
Wow, 2008 is 3/4 of the way over. I've got 206 days left at Full Sail. Then I have to get a job. YIKES!
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Now playing: The Last 5 Years - Moving Too Fast
via FoxyTunes
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Now playing: The Last 5 Years - Moving Too Fast
via FoxyTunes
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Met a goal, time to keep on keepin' on
As of today, I reached my six month target of 200 lbs.! I'm excited. I'm pumped.
It's fucking Sunday Fun Day and I couldn't be happier.
It's fucking Sunday Fun Day and I couldn't be happier.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
The Six Stages of Production
Today I picked up Film Scheduling by Ralph S. Singleton.
The first chapter starts with the Six Stages of Production:
1. Wild Enthusiasm
2. Total Confusion
3. Utter Despair
4. Search for the Guilty
5. Persecution of the Innocent
6. Promotion of the Incompetent
Anon
Made me laugh.
The first chapter starts with the Six Stages of Production:
1. Wild Enthusiasm
2. Total Confusion
3. Utter Despair
4. Search for the Guilty
5. Persecution of the Innocent
6. Promotion of the Incompetent
Anon
Made me laugh.
Friday, August 08, 2008
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Choosing with Confidence
Wowzas! This could not have been said at a more important time in my life.
Paulo Coelho
The warrior of the light always manages to balance Rigor and Mercy. To attain his dream he needs to have a strong will - as well as an immense capacity of self-surrender.
Although he has an objective, the road to reach it is not always the one he imagines, so he has to use discipline and compassion. God never abandons his children - but the designs of Providence are unfathomable.
So, for the warrior of the light nothing is abstract. Everything is concrete and everything concerns him.
He does not sit in the comfort of his tent observing what is going on in the world, but accepts each challenge as an opportunity to transform himself.
Some of his companions spend their lives criticizing the lack of options or commenting on the decisions of others. The warrior, however, turns his thought into action.
Sometimes he makes mistakes, and pays the price of his error. Other times he strays from the path and wastes a lot of time getting back to the original destination.
But a warrior does not become distracted, because he knows what he is looking for.
Paulo Coelho
The warrior of the light always manages to balance Rigor and Mercy. To attain his dream he needs to have a strong will - as well as an immense capacity of self-surrender.
Although he has an objective, the road to reach it is not always the one he imagines, so he has to use discipline and compassion. God never abandons his children - but the designs of Providence are unfathomable.
So, for the warrior of the light nothing is abstract. Everything is concrete and everything concerns him.
He does not sit in the comfort of his tent observing what is going on in the world, but accepts each challenge as an opportunity to transform himself.
Some of his companions spend their lives criticizing the lack of options or commenting on the decisions of others. The warrior, however, turns his thought into action.
Sometimes he makes mistakes, and pays the price of his error. Other times he strays from the path and wastes a lot of time getting back to the original destination.
But a warrior does not become distracted, because he knows what he is looking for.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Artzi Nazi
We're starting pre-production on a web series entitled 'Artzi Nazi'.
It is going to star Ben Holden. Heinrich Heimann, the Artzi Nazi, is trying to bring the peace and order back to the Nazi Party. Working as an accountant to an aspiring Jewish Artist, Heinrich doesn't understand what happened to make the world so 'cluttered'.
Ben's willing to shave his head, and we're thinking that he might need a tattoo resembling a swastika crying.
Possibilities.
It is going to star Ben Holden. Heinrich Heimann, the Artzi Nazi, is trying to bring the peace and order back to the Nazi Party. Working as an accountant to an aspiring Jewish Artist, Heinrich doesn't understand what happened to make the world so 'cluttered'.
Ben's willing to shave his head, and we're thinking that he might need a tattoo resembling a swastika crying.
Possibilities.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Hundred or Bust
I'm starting a new workout today.
I've been lacking in my push up ability, and so I've decided to fix that. The Push up is apparently a really good measure of strength and general fitness, so I figured if my goal was to eventually do an unassisted pull up, why not push first?
I took the initial test yesterday and ranked in the 3rd class. I kinda surprised myself with that anyway. Push ups used to be the bane of my lackadaisical existence, and now I can do more than ten without really thinking about it. Guess all that gym money is going to good work.
Locked and loaded, I was ready to skip the first day today and start tomorrow. I was standing in my bathroom, ready to jump in the shower, when I realized, Fuck that!
There have been a lot of things that have changed for me in the last year, even the last few weeks. I am still Joe, but at the same time, I'm a completely different person. It's liberating, and feels pretty fuckin' awesome. I decided to continue the trend.
I threw on some shorts (naked push ups didn't seem appropriate) and threw down. I completed the set, 41 push ups. I'm pretty sure that I've never done that many push ups in one setting before. I feel great.
I'm so excited about what's to come and for the first time in a long time, I'm not thinking about every little thing. I'm just gonna do my thing and let the rest roll.
Bring it! 100 or Bust.
I've been lacking in my push up ability, and so I've decided to fix that. The Push up is apparently a really good measure of strength and general fitness, so I figured if my goal was to eventually do an unassisted pull up, why not push first?
I took the initial test yesterday and ranked in the 3rd class. I kinda surprised myself with that anyway. Push ups used to be the bane of my lackadaisical existence, and now I can do more than ten without really thinking about it. Guess all that gym money is going to good work.Locked and loaded, I was ready to skip the first day today and start tomorrow. I was standing in my bathroom, ready to jump in the shower, when I realized, Fuck that!
There have been a lot of things that have changed for me in the last year, even the last few weeks. I am still Joe, but at the same time, I'm a completely different person. It's liberating, and feels pretty fuckin' awesome. I decided to continue the trend.
I threw on some shorts (naked push ups didn't seem appropriate) and threw down. I completed the set, 41 push ups. I'm pretty sure that I've never done that many push ups in one setting before. I feel great.
I'm so excited about what's to come and for the first time in a long time, I'm not thinking about every little thing. I'm just gonna do my thing and let the rest roll.
Bring it! 100 or Bust.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
A Horribly Serious Week
This week has been pretty awesome. The launch and success of "Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog", coupled with the imminent release of "The Dark Knight" has made my week a week of super-villain bliss.
Acts I and II of Dr. Horrible are online and amazing. NPH is great, although I have some difficulty with seeing Nathan Fillion as an ass, but let's just say that Act II sealed his doom. Felicia Day is awesome. I don't recall ever having seen her before, but her voice is stunning. And while we're on the topic, NPH can sing! He's been a great surprise. He stands and delivers in a way I never imagined. It's been a pleasant surprise. All these factor together to make one of the most successful internet ventures in a long time. Check it out either at their website, or iTunes.
On another note, The Dark Knight starts tonight at midnight.
Am I excited? Maybe. What do you think?
Anyway, this week has been pretty awesome. The anticipation combined with the satisfaction of a well presented production have made it amazing.
L8r g8rs
Acts I and II of Dr. Horrible are online and amazing. NPH is great, although I have some difficulty with seeing Nathan Fillion as an ass, but let's just say that Act II sealed his doom. Felicia Day is awesome. I don't recall ever having seen her before, but her voice is stunning. And while we're on the topic, NPH can sing! He's been a great surprise. He stands and delivers in a way I never imagined. It's been a pleasant surprise. All these factor together to make one of the most successful internet ventures in a long time. Check it out either at their website, or iTunes.
On another note, The Dark Knight starts tonight at midnight.
Am I excited? Maybe. What do you think?
Anyway, this week has been pretty awesome. The anticipation combined with the satisfaction of a well presented production have made it amazing.
L8r g8rs
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Where the Hell is Matt?
Awesome project that a friend stumbedupon. Check it out for a good time!
Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.
Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Great Music helps a good work out
I've been working out a lot lately. More often, and now, longer. What gets me through my 30 minutes of cardio? This week it's been Coldplay's latest album, 'Viva la Vida or Death and All His Friends'. More specifically, Viva la Vida, to name the track. I love this album and can't seem to get enough of it. I highly recommend you all give it a listen. It's pretty awesome. Oh. By the by, check out my latest traineo reports. Awesome!
P.S.
Here's a little picture from our last project: Iron and Chalk
P.S.
Here's a little picture from our last project: Iron and Chalk
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