Saturday, January 24, 2009

68 Days...

Man,

We've wrapped on our 35mm and that means that things at Full Sail are winding down.  Just over two months from now I need to be doing something that forwards my career, but what?

I think about everything I've built here.  The friends, the network, the life - and I wonder what will happen to all that.  Will I be able to do it again?  Will I be sucessful?  Will I be able to stay in contact with all my friends again?  Does any of that matter?  Just because I want things to stay the same, doesn't mean that they will.

I set my jaw, look to the future and hope that I can be content; happy, even.

I've come to be content and at times downright happy with the last 18 months.  I've forged some friendships that will be difficult to leave, and hopefully some that will continue to florish.

Hope, I guess that's all that I can do.  Hope and work.

We'll see what happens from that point on.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Because I need a moment

Step 1: Put your music player on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly (No lyric hunting! That is cheating!)

1. Well, this hurts me more than I can stand to say
2. You know I try to get close to you
3. I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
4. I'm holding on your rope
5. Stress can breed a psychopath
6. You've got your ball, you've got your chain
7. Meet me where the city turns to trees and nothing comes for free
8. Hello World
9. I had a dream we went away, left this city for a day
10. Safety pins hold up the things
11. You're sorry now
12. I'm sinking yet I'll stride
13. I'm gonna take you down to the market, lover
14. I've been cheated by you since I don't know when
15. It's been a while since the two of us talked
16. I fly like paper, get high like planes
17. If I had no more time
18. It may not feel too classy
19. Finally I figured out
20. There's something I need to show you
21. I'm not one for love songs
22. Every night devise
23. Standing on a building
24. The wilted flowers that I gave
25. Motorcycle's in the parking lot
26. Maybe if my heart stops beating
27. Jessie says she's been here for a thousand days
28. Do you know where your heart is?
29. Any dolt with half a brain
30. I'm a suspect, I'm a traitor
31. They're turning away from me
32. This place is a prison
33. You promised me starry night skies
34. If it takes away the pain it's all right
35. You were the sweetest thing that I ever knew
36. I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
37. I can't beleive the news today
38. Sittin' here eatin' my heart out waitin'
39. Wishes bounce me weightless
40. You took my hand, you showed me how
41. They told him don't you ever come around here
42. Last night I fell in love without you.
43. Let me apologize to begin with
44. So in the meantime
45. If the fish swam out of the ocean
46. Old John from his deathbed cried
47. Early in the mornin'
48. I'm coming out of my cage
49. Bones are broken and the will is sunk
50. Sometimes the snow comes down in June

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Resolutions - 09

Here’s the deal.  I don’t care who you are, what you do, or what you expect from me, but this year is going to be mine.

2008 was great, but 2009 will be epic.

Here’s a brief re-cap of 2008:

1. I entered Sophomore, Junior, and Senior year.
2. I started learning how to take care of myself physically, and it’s paid off.
3. I worked on over 17 separate productions (music videos, independent productions, class projects, etc.)
4. I’ve managed to develop my social skills to an area that I didn’t really consider an option previously (at least for work).
5. I assessed my priorities and have been able to realize that I don’t need to have a set path.
6. In the last year of school, I was late to class once.
7. I started to develop contacts, local and national, within the Television/Film Industry
8. I learned to let go a bit more...
9. I kept in contact with those who mean something to me, although sometimes difficult.
10. I solidified some new friendships that I hope will continue to develop.
11.  I worked my ass off; see numbers 1 thru 10.

P.S. - 12. I contacted a talent agency directly; attempting to garner talent for a low budget-independent short.

As I look to the future, I see lots of things that are beginning to develop.

I’m about to start my career.
I have no five year plan, except to succeed.
I’m going to be roughing it for a bit, and enjoying every miserable minute.
I finally feel the ability to deny access to myself from people who constantly pain me.
I am going to live life like it’s going out of fuckin’ style!

These are just a few of the affirmations/resolutions I’ve made to myself this year.  There are a few others, but they’re personal, so if you’re nosey enough to ask, I might tell you.

Fuck it.
Fight on.